Saturday, May 31, 2008

I know you can see me. I can feel you watching me. I can feel you touch me and become me. I can feel the angel, locked in this prison of my skin and bone, my body a shell for this heavenly being. My life is a mistake. I should be flying with wings throughout the universe. Instead I slog in the mud down here.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

When you look me in the eyes and tell me that you love me. Everythings alright when you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes I catch a glipse of heaven. I fly. My paradise.

hansar - BB4L :D
And still miles to go before I go to sleep...

P.S. Hansarr is a bum XD

Sunday, July 01, 2007

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
wow is it possible to cry over a song? i've always wanted elementary school to end... but now that its over i'm trying to hold on to whats left. It's just memmories now. I know its stupid but i wish we had one more day of grade 8 just to say what we feel and say goodbye again. Some of my friends moving... It's hard to deal. On the plus side highschool's coming. The next four years will be filled with drama, tears, betrayel etc. atleast that's what i get out of everyone who's in it. sigh...everyones talking about moving on and not hangin' with the friends they have...making new ones. It's just freaking me out now. I will get through this...hopefully.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

I wrote this letter to let you know forever
I keep you in my heart when I'm leaving you
I wrote this letter and it ain't getting better
That is why I can't be with you
Ps: I still love you

My philosophie was you and me, even up my dreams it is you I see
The puzzle, the puzzle incomplete can't you see you was all I needed
I'm sad trying to hold back, but tears rolling fast with this pain in my past
Honestly I feel weak, well it's hard to explain but you drive me insane

It is reality that you're playing me
You took my inner breath
Cause I was blind to see
Now I know that I have to go
Why don't you see I was all you needed
Wanna stay but it ain't ok that he is with you
And it's me who's alone

Thursday, March 15, 2007

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
Upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here,
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you looking
There's nothing left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
Someone let you down again
So you turn to me
Your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you're doing
And what you hope to find
I've seen it a thousand times
Oh the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor
I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you's not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Baby it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad
No, I don't feel bad
and life goes on as im fading away. im sick of this life, i just want to scream. how could this happen to me ?

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

one rainy afternoon
one huge crush on a boy
a few secrets
a kitchen, preferabely somewhere in Toronto
fresh laughter-- as much as you want
one or two broken hearts
a pinch of salt
a good friend--or even better three
woww i haven't written in this thing since...forever :P
well i better start now so HI :P

Sunday, February 04, 2007

and saying how feel isn't allowed anymore.. so just throw away old love in a bottle and out to see and watch it away as you cry because this wait for destiny won't do............