When you look me in the eyes and tell me that you love me. Everythings alright when you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes I catch a glipse of heaven. I fly. My paradise.

hansar - BB4L :D

And still miles to go before I go to sleep...

P.S. Hansarr is a bum XD

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
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wow is it possible to cry over a song? i've always wanted elementary school to end... but now that its over i'm trying to hold on to whats left. It's just memmories now. I know its stupid but i wish we had one more day of grade 8 just to say what we feel and say goodbye again. Some of my friends moving... It's hard to deal. On the plus side highschool's coming. The next four years will be filled with drama, tears, betrayel etc. atleast that's what i get out of everyone who's in it. sigh...everyones talking about moving on and not hangin' with the friends they have...making new ones. It's just freaking me out now. I will get through this...hopefully.

I wrote this letter to let you know forever
I keep you in my heart when I'm leaving you
I wrote this letter and it ain't getting better
That is why I can't be with you
Ps: I still love you

My philosophie was you and me, even up my dreams it is you I see
The puzzle, the puzzle incomplete can't you see you was all I needed
I'm sad trying to hold back, but tears rolling fast with this pain in my past
Honestly I feel weak, well it's hard to explain but you drive me insane

It is reality that you're playing me
You took my inner breath
Cause I was blind to see
Now I know that I have to go
Why don't you see I was all you needed
Wanna stay but it ain't ok that he is with you
And it's me who's alone

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
Upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here,
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you looking
There's nothing left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
Someone let you down again
So you turn to me
Your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you're doing
And what you hope to find
I've seen it a thousand times
Oh the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor

I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you's not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Yeah
Baby it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad
No, I don't feel bad

and life goes on as im fading away. im sick of this life, i just want to scream. how could this happen to me ?

ingredients
one rainy afternoon
one huge crush on a boy
a few secrets
a kitchen, preferabely somewhere in Toronto
fresh laughter-- as much as you want
one or two broken hearts
a pinch of salt
a good friend--or even better three

woww i haven't written in this thing since...forever :P
well i better start now so HI :P

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and saying how feel isn't allowed anymore.. so just throw away old love in a bottle and out to see and watch it away as you cry because this wait for destiny won't do............

Nothing is worth it now. Crying won't solve anything, just make me feel even worse. Now im stuck here all alone with a million questions running through my mind. How? Why? Maybe if I close my eyes forever it will ease the pain.. I just don't know. *sigh.. and nothing left to do. Through these tears i force this broken smile.. :(

aghh
JAY SEAN omgshh hez so effin hawtttt :P ;) LOl hansa

It's crazy i hope you feel my pain. You stole my heart. Please don't say anything or " my paper heart will bleed ".........

So whats everyones secret, its the same right, what are u most afraid to tell someone about anything, its not rejection it isnt even doubt that theyll understand u, its human nature.

For all the people living 'life' as we call it no matter how far we go how much we do its never enough, there can only be momentary satisfaction and then there is darkness and imperfection all over again, so whats the use,,, right now figuring out lifes purpose is the least of any ones worries.

For a moment hail peace the most fragile flower becoming its essence, and listen ,,, for a moment imagine and then wake up its a dream nothing is true the earth isnt even round. Everyone defines themselves by something they do that nobody else does. But the very few peolpe who are that good always find that they need to be better as well so the circle continues, we can never be at any place we want to be because we never know when to stop. we find role models in other people try to adapt and imitate them losing our personality in the rush for an image of 'acceptance' or even 'achievement' Mirror Mirror on the wall whos the fairset of them all. It lies quote House MD, everybody lies!!

becasue I don't have the heart to try, one more false start in life. Its been so hard to get it right. Seems like the moment I catch up, the farther you fly.....

and you never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain and let it last forever.......

Another moment of my life passes by as i sit here thinking of what could have been. What if.. How about.. Maybe.. Nothing is worth it. I now realize that. I have made a big mistake. But the only mistake was loving you. Is that such a crime? I can now say even after days that i still love you more than words unspoken.

Before you came into my life, it really had no purpose. Going to school. Getting good grades. Studying. Playing 'round with a couple friends. Going to the movies having a good time.. I had a lot but i knew something was missing. I didn't really know what until the day i met you. When you came it was like my life was perfect. No worries. Everything was going my way for once. I know it sound wierd but its true...

And when you left its like my world just came to an end. Its like i had no purpose. Like this happiness was too much. I guess I was just blinded. And now im here staring at the screen, tears in my eyes. Thinking about what could have been. And listening to this sad song :

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out. I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while. Even though going on with you gone still upsets me. There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok. But that's not what gets me. What hurts the most. Was being so close. And having so much to say. And watching you walk away. And never knowing what could have been And not seeing that loving you. Is what I was tryin' to do. It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go. But I'm doin' It. It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone. Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret. But I know if I could do it overI would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken..

fading away...

Sigh... I never thought it would end this way.

Memmories. It's all I have left. Maybe it was my fault or maybe it just wasn't meant to be. How do i explain it. It's so simple but why does it seem so complicated? How can i forget the past month and a half?

It's just that i've never had someone who knows me like you do. This feelings like no other...

We built it up to watch it fall. Like we meant nothing at all. I gave and gave the best of me, but couldn't give you what you need. You walked away. You stole my life. Just to find what you were looking for but no matter how i try i can't hate you anymore. You're not the person you used to be. The one i want who wanted me. And that's a shame but there's only so many tears i can cry before it drains the light right from my eyes. And i can't go on that way. And so i'm letting go of everything we were but that doesnt mean it doesn't hurt..

Sometimes you hold so tight it slips right through your hands. Will I ever understand? An empty room can be so defeaning, the silence makes you want to scream. It drives you crazy.

Watch my life pass me by in the mirror. Pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer. I don't want to waste another day stuck in the shadow of my mistakes. Because i want you and I feel you. Crawling underneath my skin. Like a hunger like a burning to find the place i've never been. Now i'm broken and i'm faded. I'm half the person I thought I would be. But you can have what's left of me. I've been dying inside, little by little. No where to go, but going out of my mind in endless circles. Running from my self until, you give me a reason for standing still. I'm falling faster. Barely breathing. Give me something, to believe in. Tell me it's not all in my head.

Don't think I can ever stop. I can't help the way i'm feeling. My heart can't stop from breaking. I can't stop loving you.

My heart's filled with such emotion. You're the reason for the air I breathe. I pledge to you all my devotion. I've never been so close to heaven, as the moment when I looked into your eyes. But now all that's gone and im left with the memory... I can't help it. I'm Sorry...

Sigh...

Life jus hit an unexpected turn..don't know whats happening now..for better or for worse? sometimes I feel depressed for no reason then times when im so unusually happy I start dancing..i guess its just life..

She just sat there staring out of her window, watching life pass her by. Not knowing what she was yet to overcome. She let her hand out to feel the rain against her skin wishing it would wash away her past. wishing.. Wishing she was a child again nestled in her mother's arms longing to hear the words "it'll be alright".

She had too much time. Too much time to think. Too much to time to remember her past hurts and wishing things could be different. Staring at her four walls. Trapped. In a world so cruel. Crying and letting her wounds heal. No one could see the depth of her dispair wishing desperately that someone would actually care.

She thought about the past, about him... Thinking back to the time she loved him. When the world was a much brighter place and her burdens weren't so heavy. Special. Lying in his arms forgetting the world. Protected from all the cruelty of the world surrounding her. Thinking back to the time when he was beside her, holding her hand. Lifting her up when she didn't have enough strength to stand. An emotional oneness shared by two hearts... Something. That made life worth living. Something that made her world complete.

As he walked away.. her burdens grew heavy more than she could bare. Her life had no purpose and now she sits there staring out her window watching the world pass her by..